Just promise me you’ll think of me

In a heartbeat

It does not take a genius to analyze your actions, be it subtle or obvious.

Others may have no clue but we know jolly well.

Let the game begin.

Thank u.

Its clear we don’t understand but the last thing on my mind is to leave u.

Sing once again with me, our strange duet

I wanna be the girl he gazes so intently at.

In all your fantasies you always knew that man and mystery 

Sing for me

我在追尋甚麼東西

Is This All

一 天 一 天 重 覆 上 演

奔 跑 著 卻 沒 有 終 點

付 出 一 切 拼 湊 一 片

我 期 待 生 活 有 所 改 變

可 笑 的 他 們 冷 漠 的 臉

事 不 關 己 的 語 言

我 拼 了 命 奮 力 向 前

把 明 天 都 實 現

我 祈 禱 我 能 遇 見

所 謂 完 美 的 世 界

Is this all I’ve been waiting for
Is this all I’ve been searching for
我 在 追 尋 甚 麼 東 西

原 來 不 過 都 只 是 空 氣

So is this all I’ve been waiting for
Waiting for , waiting for…

半 開 的 眼 半 醒 的 眠

思 緒 被 困 在 夢 裡 面

我 想 看 見 卻 看 不 見

是 否 已 經 到 了 極 限

我 祈 禱 我 能 遇 見

所 謂 完 美 的 世 界

Is this all I’ve been waiting for

Is this all I’ve been searching for

我 在 追 尋 甚 麼 東 西

原 來 不 過 都 只 是 空 氣

So is this all I’ve been waiting for
Waiting for , waiting for…
Is this all I’ve been waiting for
Is this all I’ve been searching for
我 在 追 尋 甚 麼 東 西

原 來 不 過 都 只 是 空 氣

So is this all I’ve been waiting for
Waiting for , waiting for…

Innocent Eyes

I miss those days and I miss those ways
When I got lost in fantasies
In a cartoon land of mysteries
In a place you won’t grow old
In a place you won’t feel cold and I’ll sing

Da da da da da da da da da da da da
Seems I’m lost in my reflection
Da da da da da da da da da da da da
Find a star for my direction
Da da da da da da da da da da da da
For the little girl inside who won’t just hide
Don’t let me see mistakes and lies
Let me keep my faith in innocent eyes

Oops I did it again

Back then I was younger and not too aware of the music industry.

The only thing I remembered about this performance, then, was the outfit.

Now, I think she is a born entertainer. Who cares if she lip-scyncs? Her entertainment value is enough to override everything.

I look forward to the day when she returns to this form. Where she literally danced like a woman born a slave to the music. Throwing all caution to the wind and just dance.

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I just wrapped my second drama.

Its a lighter role compared to my first drama. There are many firsts.

- My 出场 is ‘naked’…

- My first 亲热 scene

- My first on-screen ‘kiss’

- My first time being this rude to an elder

- My first time sniffing ‘glue’

- My first time slapping somebody!

- My first time being handcuffed

She is indeed a bad bad girl.

I can’t wait for the final product.

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Next up I will be working with some of my pals

And my next drama, gonna go back to being the nice girl I am haha!

Some challenges again but what is life without them? Mundane and predictable~

This character is… gray. Not white like Wufeng or black like Elsie. Though she is a very light gray. And the reason for the gray tinge is not within her control… And to some people she might not even be gray but pure white instead.

I will start moulding this new girl.

Love has a major part to play in this girl’s life.

More about her soon…

My only dream is about you and I

Deja vu.

The first time, it was an evolvement, perhaps a once in a lifetime happening.

But, fireworks are too enticing.

Boats would not matter, if I could fly.

And now I hear things. Things that would normally catch me off-guard. Now I think, that’s it?

What is real?

Being in the know, is tiring.

Sometimes I wish I was ignorant. And held on to my original beliefs.

Now, cynicism has started to creep in. The more I know the least I am surprised.

And even more strongly do I hold on to the world, in my head.

I just had a good dream. That, was good, because everything happened the way I wanted it. No second guessing no nothing.

Seems like my perfect world only exists in my head.

Perhaps, as time goes by, there might really come a time when we can choose to leave our physical bodies and live in the world our minds have conceptualized and projected.

This is why I love the night.

The usual operations of the world, are put on hold. Most people sleep. And I get to live in my world. Sometimes I wish there were some company. But when day comes and everyone else start to stir, sometimes I wish to be left alone.

Actually, I just want a simple life.

But sometimes, simplicity is not within my reach.

My only recourse is being an enigma.

I only feel gravity and I wonder why

1,2,3

I am accountable to me.

盛开而为我而凋谢

你用我的后悔当作复活节

让爱情找回它的美
你仍是我最爱的谁

Talking to the moon

Cause when the sun goes down
Someone’s talking back

Celebrate Life

After I collected my ‘A’ Level results, I had my sights set on two courses.

One of which I did not pursue as I was not comfortable with the idea of living away from my family for a long period of time.

The other course, I could not get into, then.

So, in a way, my eventual degree is my third choice. Nevertheless, I enjoyed reading it and also gained useful life skills from it.

Recently, I have been reading up on my interest, again, and the fire within me is reignited.

It is a feeling I have almost forgotten.

As long as I am alive, I wanna pursue my dreams, my goals, no matter the noise.

Yes I have my doubts but to quote someone, “Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we often might win by fearing to attempt.”.

I would rather fail trying than not try at all.

We’ll see.

V

I wanna dance like him!

If I Die Young

Perhaps its due to some stuff that happened.

I always think that death is not far from me.

As in not my death per se, but the subject itself.

Yes, I am very scared of death.

I felt helpless, and then to make myself feel better I think that such stuff are beyond my control and the person has left his/her suffering physical-emotional self and is now in a better place.

My little sister, Twinkle (the Pomeranian seen in some of my pictures), is 10 or 11 years old. I stopped counting the moment she hit 10. Because I know, there will come a day when she will no longer be in my life. And as the days go by, I see her being less and less of her younger self, and I… kind of go into denial mode. But I know, its all part of the process. And I should prepare myself for it the moment I made the decision to have her in my life.

To me, she is always the little baby. Regardless of her graying whiskers, her loosening teeth, or the fact that she no longer barks when I come home (cause she would be in deep sleep, or her sense of hearing is weakening). I take pride and solace in the fact that she is still the dog I know, and whom I have grown up with. And she has enriched my life like how we have enriched hers

I guess, when the time comes, I will be able to deal with it, just like how I did with the other losses.

Such is life.

And this song set me thinking, what if everything were to end for me, if tomorrow never comes?

I do not have any sizable assets to give away, but I hope the people who love me and whom I love, will be able to stay strong and move on.

I want them to take comfort in the thought that I will be with my beloved m.

I hope I will not have any regrets.

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I’ve had just enough time

Teachers’ Day Special

Look out for the Teachers’ Day Special on the 2nd of September.

It was my first time doing an ‘interview’ sort of thing.

A great experience!

First, check this out!

Hahaha. I slowed down on my speaking huh!

And the Special:

Happy Teachers’ Day!

Special thanks to the person who uploaded the videos on Youtube